[17] Getting Through The Week
Dear You
Ever since I found out about that particular news. I've been dragging myself to get through the week.
Mind you. The news is not about Rudy. Nope. It's about me. How I'm going to handle it... I'm not sure. I'm still in disbelief.
FUCK!
I'm going to turn 23 this Oct. I'm still too young for this to happen to me. But then this kind of things doesn't actually care what age you are.
But still! What the hell!
Like what I told some of my friends. Shit happens but when it comes to me...
It's FUCKING DIARRHEA!
Daripada 1 ke 1 xia...
When will it end...
NABEI! she destroyed everything that I had. My happiness and yet she is still taunting me...
FUCKING BITCH!
Well...
Fuck it la...
I hate JULY!!
It's a happy month for some but for me July seems to be the bearer of alot of bad news..
PFFTTTT......
I SSOOOOO can't wait for my BKK trip to de-stress..
Been so busy and tired this past week..
I get so tired easily nowadays. No matter if I try to sleep early. It doesn't seem to make much difference.
Ho well... we'll see how it goes.
Too tired to type anything much now. In fact I didn't have much energy to actually be looking for some adventures or weird stories to tell.
But knowing me.. Something will happen sooner or later. Mark my words..
After all. Nothing can attract trouble and weirdos like I do.
Maybe they know that I'm too lethargic to entertain them and that's why they're staying away to let me gain back some of my energy.
So I guess I had better appreciate the calm before the storm.
Other then that I helped model for Ain for her make up exam yesterday.
Not sure when she can get the studio shots of me.
But she did take some shots with our digi-cams.
Not much but a few...
 I would be lying if I said that I didn't wonder how I would look on my wedding day. (If I finally get married of course) Like what I told Ain when she asked me about it. (i rasa when budak-budak semua dah kahwin, dah ada 2-3 anak baru i nya turn) Again... If I finally decide to get married of course. For now my heart is just not healed enough to think of starting a new relationship. I'll just be single or a spinster and spend my time with my friend's kids.
A few of my friends have commented that I am getting skinnier.
Yes! I know of that fact! I can see it for myself!
What can I say... I do eat alot.. In fact the past few nights I've been going for dinner with some friends and yeah they were surprised that I didn't gain weight after seeing the amount of food I ate.
It's not that I don't want to gain weight. I do... No matter how much I eat, the stress I've been facing is keeping me from gaining weight.
Damn it!
I really need to get away from this country..
Another month to go and I'm counting down the days.
It's only 10.30pm and already I'm so sleepy.. Think I'm coming down with something. My immune system to diseases have been hopeless lately. Maybe I'll go and eat and disturb my siblings before turning in. Still missing him... Haizz... Till then...
Labels: I feel soooooooo weak....
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