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Wednesday, March 05, 2008

[29] It's Already March..

[29] It's Already March..
Dear You

As the title goes.. it's already March. The 3rd month of the year.

I am honest to God really freaking bored at home. To update.. I haven't been working since January.

It's not that I'm lazy or anything. I'm being considered as convalescing till my appointment with the neurology clinic on the 31st of this month.

I don't think it's anything serious however the doctor believe that it would be better for me to rest at least 2 months before I can continue working.

These headaches are a killer at times.

Needless to say the boyfie pounced on that idea giving the reason that he is worried that I would faint again in the train or at work.

Before that he's been sweet-talking me to stop working and concentrate on other things like continuing my studies or taking my driving license.

Now before you shriek "CHAUVINISTIC"

He's not like that. After his parents seperated and finally divorced when he was still serving NS, the job of taking care of his mom and siblings fell to him.

Him being the eldest son, he took on the role seriously. Far too seriously in fact. And let me tell you that it sure ain't easy.

Helping his mom to make his brother a more responsible person, having a sister who is going through a rebellious phase (i see myself in her) and also a sister who is going to start studying in poly.

He worries about them constantly but it can be seen that the family are very close if you look beneath the surface.

They talk to their mom about everything that happens in their lives with a few sensitive issues covered up of course and they go out as a family when time permits.

So being the so-called 'guardian' he tends to try to ease the burden.

Easing the burden in his language is as in wanting his mom and I to stop working.

Since his company is doing well and plans for opening another 2 more businesses later this year beginning to take shape. He just wants us to sit back and relax.

True... At times I do help out with his company...

But it's so freaking boring to sit home!!

Plus I'm not used to spending other people's money. Luckily I got my own savings to fall back on and I saved some of the cash he gave me to buy him an iPhone.

That phone is fucking cool la!

The rest is being saved for a surprise birthday party for. Still a long way to go since it falls in the month of September.

But I'm planning maybe something nice and romantic for the 2 of us and something to be shared with friends.

For the friends part I'm planning to do a chalet and bbq event at Aloha Loyang to be shared with his brother since his bro's gf bdae falls on the same date as the boyfie.

But the something for the 2 of us is still undecided. I have a few ideas but I'm so fickle minded I can't choose.

Any suggestions people?

Oh God...

I'm feeling sick again..

My immune system is getting really fucked up. I've been getting fever on and off.

A few friends of mine have actually said incredulously 'your still sick?!'

It's gotten to a point where I just say 'don't you know? i'm lovesick'

Haha...

Fucking Lame!

Seriously. I've been growing chubby and altogether robust with a healthy appetite but then I'll fall sick again and be thin again.

Maybe I'm allergic to chubbiness.

A few people/friends have been busy getting engaged or married for the past few months and I have another wedding to go to this Sunday.

This must really be a lucky year for commitment. My organiser is booked all the way to December with engagements and weddings to go to with at least 2 every month.

I feel love in the air...

And to update you faithful readers...

I'm getting engaged sometime this year too..

Can't tell you when cause I don't know myself. The boyfie is intending to keep it as a surprise.

He won't tell me when his family will come over to ask my parents for my hand in marriage.

So I'm biting my nails. I don't like to be unprepared for something as important as this.

Heesh... I'm getting goosebumps already.

Just received a text from his mom asking whether I really am going to bring her to watch a live band for her advanced bdae treat.

His mom is adorable. She's the funky, loud type. She wants to go out to experience the modern life however she's afraid to venture to far from home without her kids or her own siblings.

She won't even go with her friends. And if she does, all she thinks about is home.

Even though she uses the kids as an excuse, her own kids have been encouraging her to go out more.

She's been pestering to watch a live band performance since she loves music so me being the way I am..

I offered to bring her out.

It was a good thing I bumped into an old buddy of mine. Man Toyak from Tribe and Enigma who plays at Brix for Happy Hour on Thurs and Hard Rock on Fri and Sat.

Or if there's a timing clash since his mom will be finishing work at 9pm maybe I'll bring her to Insomnia (my old working place) or watch another old buddy of mine Jeff from Cats In The Cradle. Or maybe even my favourite girl Nana a Singapore Idol finalist in season 1 at Muddy Murphy if she's still there.

Whatever it is..

Am I not a good future daughter-in-law?

I dare you to say no..

Ok..

I seriously am bored!!

I'm starting to ramble.

Not sorry that I bored you..

Till then....

Posted by: Natasha
Time: 10:00:00 AM